He's Waiting- Day 12

Tomorrow is the 1st of February... 28 more days... I have encountered Christ in a neat way. I thought everyday would be an inspiration from God!!!! But it has not been how I thought it would be... he has shown up but in ways that have been subtle, silent, in round about ways. But he has been here none the less. Thank you Jesus... forgive me for my short comings, my weaknesses, my failures. thank you for your grace and forgiveness. I am all alone tonight... TJ is at a friends house Jill and the girls are at Mount Vernon Nazarene University for a teen event. Just me the fire and Jesus. Feels pretty good but I miss my family. I want/need them around and I hate it when I am not with them... but the Lord is helping me to understand that its OK to not be around each other soooo much.
He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 11

Today was a busy day.... tried to shovel snow off the church sidewalks and stuff. It wore me out... my energy level is not that good. Took my snow blower up to the shop to be fixed- wore me out... took the kids and wife snow sledding... had fun but wore me out... went to pick up the car from the shop because we finally got the heater fix and then found out we could not bring it home- wore me out... went to the Ross Vs. Edgewood basketball game to watch Nathan Conley and Derek Ridge play each other- but wore me out. As you can tell I am wore out! Maybe its because I am almost 40? After tomorrow I will have 28 more days of this fast. I can tell you at times its so hard and I can feel God so close that is the best part. The worse part is when its real hard and I don't go to him.... duh, duh... I know, I know...... He's waiting..... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 9

Today was one of those days where I really didn't have too many thoughts run through my mind. Have you ever had one of those days? My brain has been sort of numb. I hope tomorrow will be a better day mentally. My sugars are good. My body feels OK....
He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 8

I am sitting in front of the fireplace watching the snow fall... YES YES YES!!!!! I worked on my sermon today... This is the longest that I have ever gone without food. the hunger pains are not bad at all... its the cravings... More prayer time today... needed too... had a good cry because of a situation... my sugars dropped to 95 and I got real shaky... God's word really helped today.
He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 7

I really have learned something already from this rendezvous with Christ... I NEEDED this!!! I found out that I was in some kind of funk. My relationship with my family (Jill & kids) was off... my relationship with my job was off... my relationship with myself was off... and I really didn't realize it! Man does God know what he is doing or what! think if this fast was to end today I would be very very satisfied with what has happened. God knows what we need when we need it. He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 6

What a wonderful day in the Lord! Today's services were so spirit filled. I look forward to a good week with Christ being first.... He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 5

Jill and I just got back from seeing "Mall Cop" with other couples from church. I can still smell the popcorn :) But it was all right. Before we went to the movie we met up with everyone else at Richards (a pizza place) That was alright too. Its amazing when you do something for Jesus how HE takes care of you. i really enjoyed the fellowship of friend tonight and a good movie. All made possible because for the closeness of Christ.
He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 4

"Christ sends us special love notes each day. We must expect them and look for them. The more we do this, the better we will be able to see them."
I realized this truth today as soon as I woke up this morning. Yesterday was so bad but as soon as I got up today.... I felt wonderful... not hungry, not tired, no pain anywhere, my sugar level was 170... I went hunting today and had no problems, didn't really get hungry. Now my stomach did growl a little but it just reminded me that I still need him.
My love note from Christ was to remind me that... "I will be with you and help you through the hard times... it maybe hard for a period of time but... this too shall pass. With me all things are possible... I will carry you."
Thank you Jesus!!!!
He's waiting... where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 3

They say the third day of a fast is the hardest.... you got that right! I almost gave up today. I felt weak, hungry and irritable. My readings today told me... "You can't do it alone; you need the help of the Spirit and of other Christians believers." This quote came with the scripture... "Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led by the Spirit in the desert, where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry." (Luke 4:1-2)
Pretty ironic huh! It went on to say... "Christ never expects us to live our Christian lives under our own power" THANK YOU LORD FOR YOUR GRACE, MERCY, POWER AND YOUR CHRIST FOLLOWERS!!!!
He's Waiting- where are you

He's Waiting- Day 2

Day 2 brought a lot of encouragement from my friends and family. It helped me to get closer to Jesus. Its amazing... the feeling of going on this journey of fasting to have a rendezvous with God, is so different than fasting before a surgery. I remember having to.. not eat after midnight because of a surgery the next day. The hunger and weakness from that was so hard... but after almost 2 days of not eating... its been good, I feel strong. Its because the Spirit of God is so close. The only thing that is happening is my sense of smell is a little off. Jill was fixing something for herself to eat and it smelled so good... hot sauce! Man it smelled good to me, but the problem was... it was toast and butter!!!!!!
He's Waiting... Where are you?

He's Waiting- Day 1

What a day! The devil started early this morning.. actually I couldn't go asleep until 3 Am. I was up at 6:30 to take Molly to school and wouldn't you know it I was the hungriest that I have ever been at that time of day. On the way home I prayed for the closeness of his spirit, went home and closed my eyes for a while longer. the pains were gone. My devotions taught me to remember that Christ loves me and I love him. My relationship today with my wife was better than it has been... no coincidence... his closeness brings others close... The men from church came over for the discipleship group... great time together... we went from 3 last time to 6 this time... no coincidence there either... his closeness brings others wanting to learn more. Day 1 of 40 has been a good rendezvous... He's waiting... where are you?

The Day Before Tomorrow...

Here it is... the day before tomorrow. The day before I go on this rendezvous with Jesus. Where are we going? Second guessing? Why? Are you sure? What will the end bring us? Allot of questions... but one thing I do know... HE"S WAITING...

The Fire

Tonight I am sitting in front of my fire place. Its warm and peaceful by the fire. It amazes me that something that powerful and devastating can be so soothing, relaxing and nice.

It reminds me of Jesus... he is so powerful that he can stop a mighty storm with his words, cast out demons, raised people from the dead, but at the same time when he comes close to me he is warm, soothing, grace filled, merciful and loving and just plain nice to me... even when I don't deserve it. Man he is so good!

He's waiting....

Getting Ready...

This is my first blog and post. I am getting ready for a special event in my life next week. This will be the place where I put down my thoughts about my rendezvous with Christ. He's waiting!