He's Waiting- Day 15

First off... thank you for those who have emailed me to say they like this blog... secondly... I don't know how its happening but I am GAINING WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!! I know I can't believe it either! Maybe I am taking in too many calories or its my new medicines... Which I hope its not that because when I start eating again that means my weight all 60+ pounds will come back.... THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! OK enough of that...
Here is what God taught me today... he doesn't owe us anything!!!!!! I have been at a hospital with a family that is watching a loved one die (she is already, just the vent is keeping her) the normal questions that everyone asks in a time like this is being asked... why... why doesn't God heal her... even I asked why he let stuff like this happen... you know what God taught me... He doesn't owe us anything! Its true he doesn't have to do anything. We have this mind set as humans that God should do this or that. He doesn't HAVE too. he doesn't even have to listen to us. God set this world/plan/way of life into motion long before the world was even created and things will happen as they happen. But he doesn't have to do anything for us... to us... because of us.
BUT what he does is give us GIFTS! Free and clear gifts of love, salvation, mercy, strength, help, hope... because he loves us and cares for us. And sometimes that love/care/gifts come by him saying no or doing nothing at all... I know it sounds strange... but that is the beauty of it all... he doesn't owe us anything but when he DOES do something for us... its so loving, so good, so wonderful, such a blessing and when we come to realize it that way we will appreciate it and cherish his goodness more and more......
We (I) need to start thinking more this way... thank you Jesus, God, my friend and Savior for LIFE!!!!!!! every breath I take its because of you... what a great gift... forgive me Lord for assuming that you owe me anything, that you ought to do this or that...
He's waiting... where are you?